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  • The price of sedating myself

    I’m sick. In my brain Like many others, I live on a diet of anti-anxiety and anti-depression pills. My brain is sick. It fails to produce the required neurotransmitters to be able to function correctly. Anxiety & depression these days… Depression, for me, is a physical illness as well as anxiety. My soul is doing […]


The price of sedating myself

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I’m sick. In my brain

Like many others, I live on a diet of anti-anxiety and anti-depression pills.

My brain is sick.

It fails to produce the required neurotransmitters to be able to function correctly.

Anxiety & depression these days…

Depression, for me, is a physical illness as well as anxiety.

My soul is doing fine, thank you for asking, but my brain is wired incorrectly.

This brain of mine- needs to fix so I can work and get out of bed and pretend to be an adult.

Anti-depression and anti-anxiety medicine does that. I can work, eat and talk to people.

I sleep & cook & clean the house & do shopping, but everything, even life-saving medicine, comes at a price.

SSRI Pills eventually make numb and de-sensitized.

I don’t want to become de-sensitized and indifferent to suffering.

The pain of being hyper-sensitive can be unbearable

Being hyper-sensitive is something I consider a gift, even though it is often causing me a lot of pain.

sometimes the level of pain that I feel is just a bit too much

. It becomes unbearable pain to breathe, to exist.

When I am depressed, it is like an electric device with a burnt circuit.

As if emotions were water

flooding me, I am about to drown deep in my feelings.

There is pressure in my heart and stomach.

I need to calm myself down and relax by any means necessary

Not different from others who suffer from panic attacks and elevated levels of anxiety and depression.

That would make up for many people, perhaps even a significant portion of our generation facing the pandemic. We are lonely because of social distancing.

Social distancing has gotten us facing a risk to our health, an invisible enemy.

The damage to the economy is enormous.

Being anxious and depressed is a normal and natural reaction to the current situation.

Whenever emotions become too much to bear

And overwhelming, there is always a way to care for ourselves.

Some of us may require professional help- some need talk therapy, while others might not get better without more radical treatment, such as medication or even hospitalizations.

We all deserve to feel OK, even during discomfort and unrest.

It makes no difference what we need to feel OK.


There are a lot of technologies and techniques to come to our aid and provide us with tools to become our very own caregivers.

I don’t have any clever or better advice for you in person rather than to be kind.

First of all, be kind to yourself.

You don’t need to feel guilty or ashamed for feeling “mentally ill.”

Self-compassion is the key to recovery & spiritual awakening

, the first step of planning how to continue the pursuit of happiness in a world that is going through a pandemic

The purpose of joy in a hostile world

. The purpose of happiness and joy continues even in the new reality the plague created.

It is a matter of strategy, of faith. Of resilience.

This is a journey to walk through, both personally and as a community

. We cannot make even the most minor step of this journey without feeling deserving 0f life

Feeling worthy of living is my challenge.

An old friend left this as an instruction for life.

She didn’t survive, but her words did.

To feel worthy 0f life even when I am sick from my broken brain torturing me.

Sometimes my brain needs a fix to stop it from torturing itself.

I DON’T CARE WHAT THEY SAY.

Some might say this is a weakness,

BUT I DON’T CARE WHAT THEY SAY.

Like others, I need anti-anxiety and depression to survive.

To make life possible, function. I don’t care if society thinks that I am weak or insane.

Life is more important than everything, even when they come at a high cost.

I have the right to exist and whatever I need to preserve the life in me.,whatever it takes

A heartfelt final word to my reader

You should be feeling worthy of living yourself.

If you don’t feel so, trust that I think that for you.

Because you are human

You deserve to love and live.

And I am human too.

https://tovtech.org/en/ seroquel side effects

Side effects

someone posted a link to this app that lets you search for psychiatric medication and see it side effects and prevalence.

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